| I negelct and neglect and neglect this poor little xanga... I think I may have to rid myself of the pain of that realization.... SO, anyone reading this, I will no longer be posting on xanga. i'll soon be blogging and whatnot on my website> www.jessicacarder.com
buh bye! much lovelovelove!
Jess |
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| - still fighting it
SOMETHING NEW 12/21/05
Forward, backward—all in the world, all in the circle of things I wanted more. But I’m still sitting here, I’m still wondering what to do next, wondering why I didn’t put you in your place; the place of my arms and the fact that I loved you more than the hope of having tomorrow. It’s over, so over, and I’m walking out the door; she’s standing there, victorious and lost. I wish I could say something, I wish I could realize you aren’t worth these tears I’m crying. I’ll leave again, you said it would be good, but what do you know? You can’t move a foot away from your barstool to see that your life is going nowhere and you love to hate it; love to wallow in the misery it creates just as long as you have a song to sing. Why did I bother looking, giving you my words, my everything? What you don’t see is what I’ll hold onto with all the strength in me, till it passes and I’ve found something new…I always do. |
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| - hide and seek
...what happened... |
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| hah.. i am updating this in time to say that i've come home and i'm about to leave again. november 3rd to be exact. i will be hitting up such states as>>>texas, arizona, california, oregon, washington, idaho, montana, colorado, illinois, then back to arkie where i will be till the first of january, then i head to hawaii! yessssss... then i plan on being back home from april-june. then new zealand! i love you all, and i hope to see your beautiful faces soon!
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| GOING AWAY PARTY FOR ME AT JUANITAS RESTUARANT THIS FRIDAY AT 8PM!
come say goodbye to be, come hung me.. bring me music... or something like a smile.. i move this monday and i am not entirely sure when i'll be back.. i love you all! |
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